It hangs there, the knot fashioned neatly, calling me
like my mother did when I was out past sunset
running with the fellas…even a few girls.
We played in the street, living free then. But those days are gone.
Each shift, negative contact, complaint, or
snide comment from those I serve
draws each loop tighter, choking away what little air that remains.
I cannot be sure anyone would bother to cut me down.
A lone truth that stings.
What is it that brings me back each day?
Much to live for, sure, but for the others, not me.
Is that really true?
Blasts from my past, from lives I watched expire,
swing the rope back and forth, gently at first.
An evil grin
on my weathered face
hoping the wooden beam
the rope is affixed to
cannot support my weight.
–C.L.Swinney (c) 2017
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Carmel drips from her
perfect lips, but her sour
words kill the flavor.
C. L. Swinney (c) 2015
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Writing contest for Mystery / Thriller stories “Fated Paradox” Inkitt’s latest contest is open for submissions!
What is Inkitt?
Inkitt is a free writing platform that helps authors reach their full potential. Users collaborate with fellow writers and readers to give each other feedback and improve their work. Inkitt’s vision is to help writers get the exposure they deserve and the publishing deals they covet, without having to jump through the fiery hoops of traditional publishing or wade in the shark-infested waters of self-publishing. They are opening a new writing contest for entries in June.
Mystery and Thriller – Fated Paradox
The theme for the contest is “Fated Paradox: Tales of gripping suspense”. They want you to keep them on the edge of their seats with your best mystery and thriller stories. Submit accounts of murders and red herrings, or have them biting their nails over stories full of adrenaline and espionage. Leave them breathless with your tales of unmatched suspense.
What are the guidelines?
They accept original fiction stories of any length. Entries must be posted on the Inkitt contest page to be considered eligible. The contest opens on June 4th and closes on July 4th. The contest is completely free to enter, and authors will retain all rights to any and all works submitted in the contest. The top 10% based on reader votes get the chance to be picked by the Inkitt staff for 1st, 2nd and 3rd prize.
What are the prizes?
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All entrants will have the chance to show their work to a rapidly growing community of authors and readers hungry for high-quality fiction.
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Normally clear eyes sting then blur.
Pedestrians scamper dodging siren echoes
smashing off buildings. Radio waves disappear,
my head flutters with life’s thoughts:
the dog needs her teeth pulled, my
wife is mad at me, the kids
start school soon, my cover car
is miles away…Calm down, you’ve
got a matter of minutes to save her.
She’s trapped in a burning vehicle
and I’m queasy. I’m there, she is not.
Tiny hair stand up on the back
of my neck. Is someone in
the shadows? What the…boom! It’s
over for me. A second Boom!
It’s over for him. Two
dead bodies, no answers, no purpose.
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On Citing People, Part One
I’m in vehicle sixteen and parked in
plain sight. Words-with-Friends may
be open, but I still study an intersection.
A tiny green “Smart Car” roars through
the limit line and I grin.
My cell phone hits my duty
bag as the accelerator is smashed.
The stares and mouths agape never
gets old. Within moments, I’ve tracked
my prey and call it in cautiously
checking for hazards. Patiently, I wait
for my gut and eyes to
digest what’s in front of me.
Ticket or warning? The egregious
violator pulls over. Cautiously, I creep
along his mini vehicle, tapping my
gun handle and peering into the
cab, searching for the driver’s hands.
I start my spiel… anger and
saliva are his rebuttal. Geez
guy, it’s just a ticket…verbal
Judo fails, a soft smile fails,
hands conveying peace fails. I consider
a hasty retreat, walking away since
it’s not worth it, but I’ve
seen this routine before. Ah ha!
Now I smell it, the “medicine”
that causes some people to act
imbecilic. I’m into the car now,
sniffing and searching like a canine.
I find his stash, the reason for
the deflection, his attempt to throw
me off my game. Now he’s
in handcuffs, and I smirk.
I impound the “Smart Car,” which causes
the tow truck driver, a mean,
gruff, and burly man, to point
and chuckle at the accused…judging
him without a robe or wig.
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Nothing Sexy About Dope
No matter how one spins it,
the dope game is dirty, from
every angle, in every state, even internationally.
We pay bad guys, commonly
called “CI’s,” to buy dope off
other bad guys, sometimes their
competition, so we can get paper,
and knock their doors down legally.
The war on drugs, although a
righteous idea, has failed, without
a doubt, for over thirty years.
The cartels have greater resources
than every law enforcement unit combined,
and they profit tens of billions annually,
live like kings with gold-plated rifles,
Siberian Tigers, and mansions built
with walls infused with bundles of cash.
Dead bodies pile up in Mexico, and
that violence seeps into the United States.
Cops, border patrol agents, and other
law enforcement groups take the bait,
get a huge payday to look the other way,
yet they always get caught and tons of
drugs penetrate the US with alarming
magnitude. This stuff consumed me
for six years…but I have the perfect plan.
Choke the borders with money sniffing
canines, intercept every penny of drug money
heading into Mexico, use it to get
Americans off drugs. Death doesn’t
bother them, losing drugs to the police
is expected, but taking their money?
Yeah, it infuriates them to no end,
causes severe grief, forces them to
pop pills pacifying ulcers. Only then
will the real war begin.
-C.L.Swinney © 2015
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Far From Routine.
Deputy Sheriff Smith arrived to work carrying his work boots and weathered ballistic vest. His damn locker combination didn’t work, and the bastard he couldn’t fathom working with again was standing naked a few lockers down flaunting his steroid-laden physique. Smith slammed his boots and vest on the floor, “Big deal, I’d still scrape the floor with you,” he muttered a little too loud under his breath.
“What was that?” asked “Beefcake” while he strolled over to Smith pounding his chest like a low-land silverback gorilla. He stood mere inches from Smith, invading his personal space cushion, and clenched his fists as if he was trying to squish oranges into juice. Bustling and murmurs in the locker room slipped away, scurried to the shadows, clinging to the walls anxious for drama.
“I said big deal, I’d still scrape the floor with you,” Smith answered defiantly. He’d had it with Beefcake, his job, he’d just received a text from his wife talking about divorce, and he hadn’t even had his Peet’s coffee yet. To hell with them all. He bladed himself to Beefcake preparing for a physical altercation.
Beefcake kicked Smith’s gear out of the way and stepped even closer. His pride and integrity had been challenged by Smith’s comment, and he couldn’t let it go. The other gorillas would call him out and his place at the top of “Idiot Mountain” would be threatened if he let this comment slide. He telegraphed his next move while winking at Smith just before trying to punch him in the jaw. Smith ducked as Beefcake’s fist rammed into Smith’s locker. The others noticed a sergeant walk into the locker room and grabbed Beefcake and Smith while trying to break up the pissing contest. Some of the remaining men snickered hoping Smith would pummel Beefcake because no one liked a hot-shot.
As the sergeant walked into the gladiator arena between two rows of ancient lockers, he raised an eyebrow after noticing Beefcake was naked. He looked him up and down, pointed at his groin, and chuckled. Beefcake turned red in the face while the others realized they were still hugging a naked man. Just before they let him go, Smith’s locker magically popped open.
Smith grinned and looked at Beefcake. “Thanks ‘Fonzy.’” The room erupted in laughter and the tension exited as quickly as a parolee would after hearing, “Police search warrant!” Smith and Beefcake exchanged glances.
“You good?” Smith asked Beefcake.
He nodded. “Yup, see you out there.” Two grown men, one still naked, shook hands and the force was back to normal.
Now they suited up for the real battle. The one where a punch to the jaw would be much better than what potentially waits for them. A treacherous environment full of guns, dope, gang members, robbers, killers, villains…not to mention the crazies plotting and training every single day to kill a cop or deputy. If only I could get the opportunity, Smith considered as he laced his boots tight and donned his mangy ballistic vest.
After briefing, Smith, Beefcake, and the rest of the team went their separate ways. Some have traffic details, others have meetings, Beefcake’s headed to see one of his lady friends, and Smith rolls to Peet’s coffee. They had twelve more hours to go. If they survived, they’d get to go home…some to happy homes, some to not-so-happy homes. For most of them, work is an escape. It’s an extremely difficult job, but the stress at home, with family, mortgages, kids, bills, and the rest of it was like a pressure cooker for them. Sometimes these guys became ticking-time bombs.
Routine, if there’s such a thing, patrol continued without too much excitement. There was a parking complaint on Middlefield, and a fifteen year old girl was reported missing. The dispatcher sent Smith to the missing child call and he rolled his eyes. He assumed she would be off with her boyfriend and let me guess, her parents don’t like her boyfriend. He chuckled as it seems he’s going to be in the middle of yet another pissing contest. Beefcake was sent to the parking complaint. He didn’t respond. “Imagine that,” Smith said out loud. Hopefully the sergeant tracks him down.
Smith drove to the location of the missing child report. On the way, he stopped at a red light. For some reason he noticed a lowered Cadillac in his side and rear view mirrors. It was occupied by four people, and it was slowly pulling up next to him. A red flag in his head was hoisted, and he went from condition orange to condition red. He heard and felt hip-hop music and saw the juveniles and young adults in the car were dressed in red. Instantly he classified them as gang members, and wondered why the younger ones weren’t in school.
They inched closer to Smith. There was a lot of discussion and pointing coming from the Cadillac. Smith didn’t like it and he found himself trying to see their hands. He slowly let off the brake to inch forward to use his door panels as cover should a fire fight ensue. The Cadillac also inched forward. They were taunting him. He disengaged the safety measures of his holster and unlocked the rifle holder. If it’s going down, I’m gonna take as many of these bastards I can with me. His pulse accelerated. He wondered how long until the light turned green. What’s my escape route? Where are the third passenger’s hands? Are they reaching under their seats? What’s my backdrop? All these thoughts raced through his mind as a bead of sweat ran from his forehead down into his cumbersome ballistic vest. He wondered if the expiration date was past due on the damn thing. I’ll check the date after my shift.
A loud bang went off behind Smith and he nearly had a heart attack as he spun his head behind him to see where it came from. He saw an old Volkswagen bug and a yuppie grinning sheepishly. Smith whipped around to look for the Cadillac. It was gone. He looked up and the light was green. Jesus, that was wild. He was still in one piece, so he continued to the missing child call.
Smith met with the parents at the front door. The father’s eyes bulged and he started gnawing on his fingernails at the sight of Smith. Smith found it odd that the man was so freaked out by his presence. He tried to be professional, but this was the third time this family had called for service. Each time he responded he found the missing daughter with her seventeen-year-old boyfriend. Smith finally figured out that the missing child’s family wants the Sheriff’s Office to do their job…raise their child. They say their daughter is out of control and won’t listen to them. Smith, during the course of his investigation of said child, had contacted the child’s school. The school felt the same as him…the family wants the school to raise their child. She received stellar grades, was involved with school activities and sports, and she volunteered time to help the homeless-far from incorrigible in Smith’s eyes.
“Can I come in?” Smith asked the father. The man shook his head and kept looking at Smith’s firearm. He didn’t answer. Smith had detected something wasn’t right, but he wasn’t sure what.
He dug further. What’s really going on here? Something about the case and the way the mother looked at him concerned him. The father seemed paranoid and kept looking down the hallway like he was waiting for someone to come from a room. He made a few phone calls and located the missing child…she was at school, where she was supposed to be. The only thing missing is the parents, he thought.
Smith was frustrated because he felt the family was playing him and the Sheriff’s Office. He had two calls for service pending now, and he was stuck dealing with a call that really wasn’t a call.
“Look, I’m not sure what to tell you guys. She’s at school and you knew it. Why’d you report her missing?” Smith was trying to read their faces, get a sense of what the hell was really going on.
The father looked at the mother, she turned away, and he looked back at Smith. He looked down the hall again and back at Smith. He looked at Smith’s firearm and back down the hallway. The hair on the back of Smith’s neck spiked. Uh oh.
“Come on guys. What’s up, and what’s down the hall?” Smith said to them while pointing down the hallway. The mother began to shake and the father looked like he’d seen a ghost.
Smith walked toward the hallway. The mother trembled and the father shuffled in front of him. He towered over the father and physically moved him out of the way.
“There’s nothing! You can’t go down there. You need a search warrant to search my house,” the father said in an almost robotic tone. Smith noticed the man was terrified. He had seen that look before, and now he was asking for a cover unit on the radio.
Smith peeked in the first room, nothing out of the ordinary. The mother was sobbing and the father continued to plead. “Stop, you can’t go down there!” Smith forged on. He checked the bathroom and the closet and saw nothing.
A hysterical scream from the mother caused Smith to shudder and then he heard it…a loud thump that came from the last room. The door was closed and he grabbed the handle. It was locked from the outside. The father was shaking now…he was white like a corpse. He stood near the kitchen with a blank look on his face.
“Give me the key, or I break the door down,” Smith growled. The father didn’t respond, but continued to shake his head. Every fiber in Smith’s body told him something bad was behind the door. He heard a siren close by. It was time to act.
“I called! I called, he’s in there,” the mother whined while fleeing out the front door.
Without hesitation, Smith shouldered the door and barreled into the room. He saw the seventeen-year-old boyfriend gagged and bounded to a chair that had fallen over. The thud! The visual and what it meant registered in Smith’s mind. He spun and pulled his firearm then bang! In the blink of an eye, he lost his hearing and immense pressure pushed him to the floor. Two more loud bangs followed during the confusion.
Smith looked up to see the father standing in front of him. He was holding a gun and time had slowed way down. The gun slipped to the floor and Smith saw bullet holes covered in blood in the father’s chest. The man slumped over and his lifeless body made a sick gurgling sound after hitting the floor revealing Beefcake standing in the doorway- smoke still lingered from his duty weapon. Smith cracked a wry smile. He unbuttoned his shirt and saw the ballistic vest had caught the bullet fired at his chest by the father.
“Damn Beefcake, next time leave her house a little quicker,” he said with a grin and wink after noticing Beefcake’s uniform was un-tucked and lipstick was on his collar.
Copyright by C.L.Swinney 2014
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